Friday, April 23, 2010

Life Has Been Tiring

It's been a rough couple of weeks. So many things going on and I'm amassing significant sleep debt. Dad's high blood pressure was acting up. In fact, he was just discharged from the hospital a few weeks ago after staying for a few days. For about 2 weeks now, he's been under some anti-biotics which makes him weak and sllightly dizzy. Hence, he's not encouraged to drive, which is bad news. Sis isn't car-pooling with anyone to college and dad was the only one who drove her to college and mum would bring her back after work. Now, I have to drive her to college near town and turn all the way back and go to work in mainland, which means I'd have to wake up at least an hour earlier on week days. I had to seriously adjust my sleep schedule but I think I need to throw in another hour. Although sis has gotten her driving license, she still has A LOT to work on. I have to coach her every weekend coz she prefers me, instead of dad who constantly scolds her.

I've started a couple more projects this week and lately have more after-work activities until pretty late at nite. A lot of other tasks and errands pop-up at the last minute too, keeping me very busy from the time I wake up until my head hits the pillow. I barely have time for zaizai and when I do, I'm pretty much beat. Zaizai had to put up with my 'mang zhang'-ness when we get to meet up.

Gym performance has suffered, I've even had to skip planned workouts coz I was too tired. FML!

I feel like I'm in a daze every day these couple of weeks, being in blur mode most of the time. I feel as if my thinking capacity and short term memory have reduced, and I've become very absent-minded. Just the other day, I tried wearing my shirt as my pants -_-".

I'm feeling more de-motivated, fatigued, withdrawn and cranky. It feels like all I wanna do is sleep. I barely have time for myself too. And when I do, I don't feel like doing much except park my ass in my room to rest. The slightest task felt like a chore, even blogging ><.

Damn...I hope this blows over soon and normal life resumes. I'm miss my clear head and having energy again. Sorry guys for the slow updates this month.

11 comments:

C'est la vie said...

my dear, same goes to me. That happens to you for a month. That happens to me since January. I hope we can get through it.

Think positively, you still have someone to manja with. Me? Hahaha..... *bitter*

Mark said...

Yeah, life's a bitch lately. Long time never chat with you d. I also no time to chat on MSN d T.T

Zemien said...

"Just the other day, I tried wearing my shirt as my pants"

Best. Line. Ever.

Otherwise, take care :)

ichimaru akira said...

don't overburden urself...

I'm sure WO understands

And do take care of urself

Little Dove said...

Go hug zaizai to sleep. You get to rest and spend time with him. Kill two birds with one stone.

William said...

Settle the other things lo. Take care of dad, yourself & zai2. Blogging should be the least on your mind.

Marky's Little Devil said...

I do tell him to take things slow and i am willing to wait for things to turn better or at least tone down abit... but then lou gong just don't want to...

Even though he's damn tired with all his works, he still wanted to meet me sometimes. Happy for a moment, then get stressed again...

Lou gong >< dont...u said before that i should take care of myself if i dont want to hurt others-who-love-me's feeling but you're not applyin it to yourself...

Mark said...

Mien: You should have seen it. Seriously damn blur at the time.

Ichi: Yeah, I know =)

Lil' Dove: Cannot sleep with him la, he likes to move around. Macam cacing one =P

William: Yeah, I guess it's one of those weeks...

Ultraman Jino said...

oh oh oh that's a responsibility you cannot escape so face it. and the weather lately is so terrible i am so exhausted doing nothing. but you get to hug him... envy haha




[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

Bravebear said...

Wearing shirt as pants? Imagine u doing that can't make me stop laughing. LOL!

Drink more water especially in the morning. Maybe try eating some sourish stuff. It keeps me awake.

Mark said...

Jino: Hehe, but I don't get to see him often also ><

Bear2: Yalor, I seriously swt when I realized what just happened T.T

Yeah, sour stuff does keep a person awake. I find it works for long drives too.