Sorry peeps. I know my blog has turned into a bit of a ghost town of late. Hardly a single post for almost 3 weeks. Been busy with real life, and recently very engrossed with Bersih 2.0. If you must know where I stand, I'M ALL WITH BERSIH! Events in the past week leading to the actual Bersih 2.0 rally has been a whirlwind of overwhelming emotions from anger, support, frustration, amazement and more. I feel like a Bersih post coming up (even though I wasn't there) but time doesn't really permit at this point.
Still struggling to get my life back in order, and striving to work on the right priorities. I need to place my thoughts in a more positive future and work towards that. My dreams and aspirations won't fall onto my lap just like that. It takes work.
Also, I've joined the Apple
cult clan last week. My trusty 4-year-old Nokia is falling apart, like literally. That hardy thing withstood MANY falls (it's also my alarm clock, so...you know when you're really sleepy and reach for your alarm clock, you sometimes knock it to the ground. In my case, it's MANY times) and even a
snatch theft.
Sometimes I really wonder, when did life get so hard and complicated? Then, when I think about it, it's more about perspective. It's about how you look at it. Sure, how you're feeling at the time could greatly influence your judgement. If you're feeling really tired or demotivated, life seems like crap, however you see it. But as a whole, how you ultimately choose to look at it is what matters. Circumstances happen and we can't control it, how you react will determine the outcome. All too often, we tend to get emotionally hijacked or let our impulse run the show, and most of those times, don't we find that we get short-changed as a result?
I believe that I'm at a time when I'm supposed to fight my way out. It's like I'm paying my dues to qualify for something greater. Does that make sense?
Pessimism is a sneaky bastard. It can creep up to you when you least expect it, park itself at a spot where it can't be spotted, whisper its dark lies into your ears and blind you from seeing and appreciating the things that you have and those who really matter. I need to take a good hard look at my life, and value the things that I have. Isn't it a bitch when you don't know what you really had, until you've lost it?
It's late, and here ends my ramblings for tonight. It's not much, just some stuff on top of my head.