Why...

...Guilds Wars 2 is gonna be epic!~

Alright alright, allow me to indulge in fan boy excitement just until after this post, k?

Guild Wars 2

OH MAI GAWD

The burning inner gamer/nerd within me is totally in bated breath waiting for this game to be finally released...some time next year it seems.

Don't get me wrong. I totally love World of Warcraft and all the time-consuming, nerdy addiction it brings, but I was really hoping for a breath of fresh air. Guild Wars 2 will have the most life-like, beautiful and visually stunning graphics the world of MMORPGs has ever seen, or so they promised. And it seems from various trailers and clips on YouTube, they aren't the least bit lying about that claim. The game-play, be it PVE or PVP-wise is gonna be based on a really dynamic. No more endless grinding, mindless questing or getting owned by people more geared by you. Quests/events come to you, all the events based on your character will be directly decided on the paths and choices that you choose, and did I mention the orgasm-inducing graphics?

You bet my obviously overly excited ass I did!~

Seriously, I'm even hoping to get into open beta when it's available, hopefully early next year.

After A 2 Month Hiatus...

Somehow, I've lost the will to blog. I don't really have the time nor the energy to write about anything late, which explains my 2 month hiatus. Work has been a bitch and the rat race has intensified over the course of this year. But fret not, that was also the call for me to get pro-active in order to have a better life and future. I'm determined not to stay average or mediocre. I want more than what life has to give right now. I want a better life. A LOT BETTER.

Life is much of a blur sometimes, thanks to my current job. And I'm still striving to get out of it. In fact, wish me luck for an interview this Saturday =)

On brighter note, zai2 and I are back together now, and we've been so for more than 3 months since our 'break-up'. What to do, he's still stuck to me like glue. Someday, I might need to have him surgically removed from me. During the course of our 'break-up', I imagined what life would be like without him. He knew me well, adjusted to my temperaments and even my family liked him. He cheered for my dreams and aspirations, and brought further cheer into my life. We did have a couple of arguments during that time and almost did break-up for real.

Then, I imagined what life would truly be without him, and I would be back to square one. Alone and striving to find that which would fill the void in my heart. Even if I were to find someone else, I would have to go through an entire cycle of mutual discoveries that new couples go through. Why would I want to put myself through all that when one who truly loves me is already in front of me? Doubts faded and a deeper affection arose. At the time when I almost lost him, was the time I found out that I needed him, as he did me.

We're not a perfect couple. We have our ups and downs. We struggle just like everyone else. But, all I know is that the thought of really losing him left me with an aching pain. A sudden, dark void that felt physical. An emptiness devoid of joy. I guess I didn't really feel it when we 'broke-up' because he was always around me. At the height of our arguments, a real break-up was at the brink of coming true. And that was when I found out how much I still loved him. Isn't it a bitch how much you truly appreciate something once it's gone, or almost gone in my case?

Lift Your Heart

So many times in so many instances have we kept doubted or despised ourselves, and struggled to make something more of ourselves. In those times, this will lift your heart.

Stay strong, look within you and keep moving forward. Bad times and seemingly never-ending struggle will always be there, and the actions we take in those circumstances will ultimately determine the outcome. In the bleakest hour on the darkest days, we need to cling on to hope and keep going. The flame of hope can be reduced to a tiny flicker, but it can never go out. That tiny spark can turn the tides if you remain steadfast and fight alongside it. It is always there if you seek it, and can devoid you of life should you lose it.

Never give up, no matter how bad things get. I need to remind myself of that always.

Alright I'll stop here. I'm getting too preachy =)

Random Ramblings

Sorry peeps. I know my blog has turned into a bit of a ghost town of late. Hardly a single post for almost 3 weeks. Been busy with real life, and recently very engrossed with Bersih 2.0. If you must know where I stand, I'M ALL WITH BERSIH! Events in the past week leading to the actual Bersih 2.0 rally has been a whirlwind of overwhelming emotions from anger, support, frustration, amazement and more. I feel like a Bersih post coming up (even though I wasn't there) but time doesn't really permit at this point.

Still struggling to get my life back in order, and striving to work on the right priorities. I need to place my thoughts in a more positive future and work towards that. My dreams and aspirations won't fall onto my lap just like that. It takes work.

Also, I've joined the Apple cult clan last week. My trusty 4-year-old Nokia is falling apart, like literally. That hardy thing withstood MANY falls (it's also my alarm clock, so...you know when you're really sleepy and reach for your alarm clock, you sometimes knock it to the ground. In my case, it's MANY times) and even a snatch theft.

Sometimes I really wonder, when did life get so hard and complicated? Then, when I think about it, it's more about perspective. It's about how you look at it. Sure, how you're feeling at the time could greatly influence your judgement. If you're feeling really tired or demotivated, life seems like crap, however you see it. But as a whole, how you ultimately choose to look at it is what matters. Circumstances happen and we can't control it, how you react will determine the outcome. All too often, we tend to get emotionally hijacked or let our impulse run the show, and most of those times, don't we find that we get short-changed as a result?

I believe that I'm at a time when I'm supposed to fight my way out. It's like I'm paying my dues to qualify for something greater. Does that make sense?

Pessimism is a sneaky bastard. It can creep up to you when you least expect it, park itself at a spot where it can't be spotted, whisper its dark lies into your ears and blind you from seeing and appreciating the things that you have and those who really matter. I need to take a good hard look at my life, and value the things that I have. Isn't it a bitch when you don't know what you really had, until you've lost it?

It's late, and here ends my ramblings for tonight. It's not much, just some stuff on top of my head.

T.G.I.F!~

Remember THIS girl?

When this song debuted over Youtube, it became SO EPIC for being SO BAD. Then, it became fun when a lot of parodies came out. Then, it became strangely addictive and you started having trouble shaking the beat out of your head...having listened to it while laughing/mocking/facepalming yourself WAY too many times.

Well, laugh all you want coz Rebecca Black just starred in a music video alongside a very nerdy Katy Perry for her latest song, Last Friday Night.

I just the MTV is just pure fun and fabulous XD

PS: That guy beside Katy is TOTALLY HAWT!~

Hooked

Seriously, when I first heard her from the radio, I thought that it was a Pink song. You gotta admit, they do sound almost the same, except Adele's is a more soulful.

It's been a while since I've such a soulful, artsy song with a retro feel to it. And her vocals are pretty amazing.